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Near Death and the Loss of our First Baby

Anyone that reads my blog will know my story is about changing my life to conceive and have our baby. So this is the hardest post I have to date and will probably ever have to write. I am writing this however in the hope to start helping me heal emotionally.

As I type this message I am lay in my hospital bed bawling my eyes out. My reason for crying this morning is waking to a very beautiful message from one of our friends down south. They say in times like these you see how much you are loved. We are very grateful for the love that we have been shown so far by the few that know.

To my husband Ebi you have been my strength and you have dug your way out of inches of snow with a wooden coat hanger just to be by my side. You have never made me feel like less of a woman for not giving you children and this still hasn’t changed now.

Early hours of Wednesday morning I was woken up with bad cramps, I thought maybe because I hadn’t been to the toilet in a few days (being on Slimming World) this happens from time to time. So I took so ducolax and was up and down all night with some pain. By the time Wednesday morming had came I got up and the snow was really bad – snow day. I tried to work from home but couldn’t get my laptop to work but I felt horrible. I tried to sleep it off but as the day went on I lost all energy and I was in complete agony in my abdomen. I couldn’t lie on my back without screaming in pain and I was throwing even water up.

I tried to go to the toilet and was woke up by fainting on the floor and being surrounded by my sister, brother and husband throwing water in my face. I fainted another time later that day. I lost all colour and had no energy.

Eventually an on call doctor came out 1am Thursday morning and assessed that she believed I had pneumonia. She instructed I stay in bed she was phoning an ambulance.

So fast forward to 5.15am Thursday morning where I get to Crosshouse Hospital in Kilmarnock. Now I will forever be indepted to the staff that with there knowledge, kindest and quick thinking saved my life. I can’t remember all of their names but I will never forget you.

The first nurse waiting one was the first to ask if I could be pregnant and the first to mention an ectopic pregnancy. I never thought I could be as I done a test a couple of weeks ago and had my periods. We’ve been trying for nearly seven years, it was just normal to hope we were and get a negative test. You got me to do a urine sample anyway.

It was your perfect bedside manner and you quick thinking that set the doctor up to look for what you thought. He confirmed I had a positive test, oh my God when they words came out I was so instantly happy. At points I have felt like I would never hear those words. Within a second though my world came crashing down when you told me truth and prepared for the worse in losing our long awaited baby.

I had to tell Ebi. I have tried to conjure up so many scenarios over the years if we got pregnant how could I reveal it to him in the best way. Here I was lying in pain explaining to you we were finally pregnant but we were probably going to lose it. You still tried to stay optimistic all the way through. You never know just how much I love you, I swear.

By I was taken for a scan and the pain disappeared as I searched the screen for our baby and then along with the staff we found it sat outside my womb and it was confirmed our baby was in the wrong place. There was a lovely nurse from the labour ward who I saw felt my emotional pain but she made me feel better in a weird way. She made me smile in amongst all of the panic and up heavel. She told me she had some sexy stockings and a nighty with a friendly wee wink as she dressed me.

Now with the quick actions of the hospital within half of an hour of confirming I had an ectopic pregnancy I was in theatre having emergency surgery.

I had a ruptured left fallopian tube and lost over 3 litres of blood that had been sat in my abdomen causing me the severe pain. My husband met the surgeon who carried out my operation yesterday and he confirmed it was very close. I nearly died. I have had blood transfusions and I am hoping I can get home but what a whirlwind this has been.

We have lost our first baby but I am alive. Thanks to the doctors and all of the nurses who have surrounded me and saved my life.

To my family and friends who have shown your love and support in your actions and your messages. We love you.

TO OUR BABY, I AM SO SORRY WE WILL NEVER GET TO MEET YOU BUT KNOW WE WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. WE MAY HAVE LOST YOU BUT WE WILL ALWAYS CARRY YOU WITH US.

Good bye our wee Cherub

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Low Syn Mongolian Beef Ramen

Packed with flavour…… This dish is a great fake away and good comfort food. And to sell it even more it’s only 3.5 syns for the whole lot…. (I say there is 4 portions).

Ingredients:

400g beef

1 green bell pepper

1 large onion

Frylite

Dark soy sauce

Light soy sauce

2 tsp lazy garlic

1 tsp lazy ginger

1 tsp toasted Sesame seed oil

1 tblspn sweetner

400ml chicken stock

1 pack folded rice noodles

Mange tout

Method:

Slice the green peppers, chop the onion and brown off with the beef.

In another pan add the Sesame seed oil, garlic, soy sauce (dark & light) and sweetner. Cook for 5mins and then add the ginger and stock.

Then add to the beef and add the noodles. Cover the pot with a lid and put on low heat to simmer away.

Then half way through I added half a pack of Mange Tout cut in half for extra speed.

Next time I would definitely make it with beef frying steak, the beef I used took a big longer to cook so the noodles broke up quite a bit but it was so tasty…..

Slimming World Woman of the Year 2017

what a week it has been

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Non Scale Weight Loss Achievements

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Low Syn CHOCOLATE Snack!!!

Well I just had to share this…. Last night I was doing some shopping and bumped into a childhood friend and he gave me one of these (he had a bag full. Lol!) So this morning I took it out my bag; it has three segments, so I shared it with two of my lovely colleagues and OMG it was chocolate heaven. It tastes similar to a Ferrero Roche and I admit I only checked the syn value after eating it – this is a slimming world SIN. Always try to check the syn value prior to shoving it in your gub to protect your weight loss.

To our delight it is only 5 syns for the bar…. 5 syns! I do believe I could happily have a segment at a time over a day as it is chocolate heaven and I would probably throw up if I ate all of it at once. What is it??? Oh I know I’m teasing you just now – what a bitch eh? Hehe.

Well without further a-do it’s a Nutella Ferrero B-Ready Bar (19.1g)….

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If like me you love your sweet stuff I highly recommend this low syn delicious treat and in comparison to your standard chocolate bars that average between around 10 -12.5 syn’s a bar this is a God send.

Woop woop I lost 3.5lb – weekly plan WC 09.06.2017

As Promised from my first week of getting a grip, below is my weekly food plan that I have done each day to make sure I put exactly what I ate. For drinks I am a bore and tend to stick to the same so it was a mixture of black coffee, herbal teas, diet pop, fruit barley water and water. All free of course so didn’t need to add them to my syn allowance each day.

Day 1:

Breakfast was orange, grapefruit and pomegranate fruit salad with 1 salted caramel hifi bar

Lunch was 2 slices of wholemeal toast with tuna and onion mayonnaise with 1 apple (2 syns for mayo. I use lighter than light mayo) and 1 hifi bar (3syns)

Dinner was Chicken satay with egg fried rice. (3 syns for the peanut butter – my own recipe you can find on here)

Snacks: 2 apples and 2 squares of Cadbury medley chocolate 93g bar

Total syn count: 13 syns

 

Day 2:

Breakfast was a big cooked breakfast (2 turkey bacon rashers, 1 low fat sausage, scrambled eggs, 2 homemade cheese and onion hash browns, plum tomatoes, mushrooms and a spoonful of beans) served with 2 slices of wholemeal toast (400g sized loaf). This massive breakfast was only 1/2 syn for my sausage – I did cook myself 2 sausages like a greedy git bit couldn’t manage it.

Lunch didn’t happen as I was busy out doing food shop, etc that’s why I had a big breakfast.

Dinner was Thai Green Chicken Curry with coconut & lime rice with savoy cabbage. (1 1/2 syns per portion but I added an extra syn to allow for me tasting along the way with cooking, to protect my weightloss)

Snacks: 1 ice lolly (Lidl Hurricane ice lolly only 4 syns) and 2 coconut yoghurt’s

Total syn count: 7 syns

 

Day 3:

Breakfast was another cooked breakfast only this time no sausages but everything else was the same as above. And guess what it’s all frickin free on Slimming World.

Lunch was strawberries and pear fruit salad with coconut yoghurt (Lidl’s Milbona fat free range)

Dinner was potato and leek soup.

Snacks: pickles and another Hurricane ice lolly (4 syns).

Total syn count: 4 syns

 

Day 4:

Breakfast was strawberries and pear fruit salad with coconut yoghurt (Lidl’s Milbona fat free range)

Lunch was potato and leek soup with a pear.

Dinner was Coconut Brazilian Chicken (check this new recipe out on my blog) with boiled Jersey potatoes and brocili

Snacks: fresh mango, 2 pears, Salted caramel hifi bar HEB, Strawberry Milbona fat free yoghurt, Lemon Milbona fat free yoghurt, 3 small meringues (1 syn each)

A lot of snacks today, I was so blooming hungry – but my syn count for the day is still minimum for having all of this. I also went a 1 hour walk at night. 

Total syn count: 3 syns

 

Day 5:

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Breakfast was strawberries, pomegranate and pear fruit salad with coconut yoghurt (Lidl’s Milbona fat free range)

Lunch was potato and leek soup

Dinner was salt & chilli crispy beef with mixed bell peppers and onion served with egg fried rice, slimming world chips and curry sauce (only 4 syn’s and that just for the curry sauce)

Snacks: pear, lemon yoghurt, 2 small meringues (1 syn each) and a fruit pastille ice lolly (2 1/2 syns)

Total syn count: 8 1/2 syns

 

Day 6:


Breakfast was strawberries, pomegranate and grapefruit with a lemon yoghurt (Lidl’s Milbona fat free range)
Lunch was 2 slices of wholemeal toast (400g loaf) and tuna & onion mayonnaise (1 1/2 syns for the mayo – Lidl’s lighter than light mayo)

Dinner was spaghetti bolognese

Snacks: watermelon & mango, 1 x chocolate orange hifi bar (3 syn’s), pineapple, pickles and 3 meringues (1 syn each)

Total syn count: 7 1/2 syns


Day 7:

Breakfast was watermelon, mango, pineapple and grapes

Lunch I went out with my colleagues but I did made good choices. Starter was bruscietta and then a chicken and bacon salad with balsamic vinegar for dressing. (no fat on the bacon) this was just 5.5 syns for all of  my lunch a day that was for the ciabbatta. 

Dinner was still to be made but having chicken with potatoes and brocoli 

Snacks: 2 hifi bars (healthy extra B), 2 mini chocolate rolls 4 syns each

Total syn count: 13 syns

If you follow this plan comment and let us know how you get on. Good luck. 

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1 Reason Why….. 

I’m sure many people on here like me are joining the ’13 Reasons Why’ fan club but it is something that will hit home with so many of us. It certainly has with me.

Over the years I have been subjected to the abysmal side of other people’s opinions. It resulted in this stereotypical bubbly, outgoing big girl suffering from bad anxiety. It ranged from being criticised for having tattoos, for growing up in a rough area, for being Scottish, for being different, for being arty farty, for not being Nigerian and marrying a Nigerian but most of all for being overweight. 

There are so many times I was criticised for my weight that I couldn’t possibly list them all. What I can say though is every snaring look, every comment, the laughter, the strangers that recorded me whilst I having fun with my friends, the people I grew up with through school hiding from me and I only noticed you because you were hiding and the guys that felt the need to be honest about how they really liked me but nothing could happen because of my size. 

I had always been that person that despite all that people saw as being wrong with me I pushed through, I held my head up for as long as I could, I hid the reality of my anxiety to all around me, even when I struggled to leave my house. Sometimes though your shoulders can only take so much weight.

Have you ever felt this way? If you have like me here is 1 Reason Why you shouldn’t give up….. 

‘you are loved’

I know it’s hard but amongst all the hate in this world there is no greater feeling than feeling loved. It doesn’t need to be the love you feel with a boyfriend/ girlfriend/ husband or wife, it can be a parents love, the love between siblings, a best friend or even a colleague.

Look beyond all the hatred and you will see the love. I have endured hatred with that asshole standing with his friends filming you dancing and laughing, in that same instance I felt the love of my friend kicking him to protect me in her way. 

All of those guys that thought I had the right to know that I wasn’t an option for them because I’m soooo amazing but fat. Believe me guys 99% of the time you were never, ever an option for me either. But the love I feel when my husband looks at me surpasses all negative thoughts I have endured and I got to my largest with him.

Just remember most hatred stems from someone’s own self hatred. Don’t let their opinions leave you wallowing in self pity see the greatestness in yourself, see the love around you and be the greatest you can be. 

The truth is as long as people have mouths they will run them off and as cheesy as this quote may seem it is true. It is so relevant in my life because when shit does get real and the burden is heavy I dance – I mean literally dance my ass off. 

Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass. It’s about learning to dance in the rain.

If in doubt reach out guys someone will be loving you more than you know.

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