I’m sure many people on here like me are joining the ’13 Reasons Why’ fan club but it is something that will hit home with so many of us. It certainly has with me.
Over the years I have been subjected to the abysmal side of other people’s opinions. It resulted in this stereotypical bubbly, outgoing big girl suffering from bad anxiety. It ranged from being criticised for having tattoos, for growing up in a rough area, for being Scottish, for being different, for being arty farty, for not being Nigerian and marrying a Nigerian but most of all for being overweight.
There are so many times I was criticised for my weight that I couldn’t possibly list them all. What I can say though is every snaring look, every comment, the laughter, the strangers that recorded me whilst I having fun with my friends, the people I grew up with through school hiding from me and I only noticed you because you were hiding and the guys that felt the need to be honest about how they really liked me but nothing could happen because of my size.
I had always been that person that despite all that people saw as being wrong with me I pushed through, I held my head up for as long as I could, I hid the reality of my anxiety to all around me, even when I struggled to leave my house. Sometimes though your shoulders can only take so much weight.
Have you ever felt this way? If you have like me here is 1 Reason Why you shouldn’t give up…..
‘you are loved’
I know it’s hard but amongst all the hate in this world there is no greater feeling than feeling loved. It doesn’t need to be the love you feel with a boyfriend/ girlfriend/ husband or wife, it can be a parents love, the love between siblings, a best friend or even a colleague.
Look beyond all the hatred and you will see the love. I have endured hatred with that asshole standing with his friends filming you dancing and laughing, in that same instance I felt the love of my friend kicking him to protect me in her way.
All of those guys that thought I had the right to know that I wasn’t an option for them because I’m soooo amazing but fat. Believe me guys 99% of the time you were never, ever an option for me either. But the love I feel when my husband looks at me surpasses all negative thoughts I have endured and I got to my largest with him.
Just remember most hatred stems from someone’s own self hatred. Don’t let their opinions leave you wallowing in self pity see the greatestness in yourself, see the love around you and be the greatest you can be.
The truth is as long as people have mouths they will run them off and as cheesy as this quote may seem it is true. It is so relevant in my life because when shit does get real and the burden is heavy I dance – I mean literally dance my ass off.
Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass. It’s about learning to dance in the rain.
If in doubt reach out guys someone will be loving you more than you know.